by Lauren | Jan 31, 2019 | Breast Cancer, Grief, grief and self-care, loss of a spouse, widows
Aaargh- what a horrible word: widow, but I guess it is more socially acceptable that calling oneself a member of the dead husband (partner/ spouse) club. Since Eric died, there have been a few friends and acquaintances who have become a member of this club that no one...
by Lauren | Jan 27, 2019 | Grief, loss of a spouse
I have conversations in my head with people everyday. I live in my head. I converse and re-enact in my head. That is part of my problem – going around and around and repeating the same script on the same issues in my head. So perhaps I should be having those...
by Lauren | Oct 25, 2018 | Breast Cancer, children and cancer, loss of a spouse
On this day five years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Today five years ago I thought I was going to die a horrible death, that I would whither away as my father had done from the brutal disease too many succumb to far too soon. Five years ago I thought I was...
by Lauren | Oct 8, 2018 | Grief, loss of a spouse
It is not just that I miss Eric’s humor and wit, his thoughtfulness and care, his intellect and mindfulness. But there are also practical issues that serve as daily reminders of his absence. Who will open the jar that defies my efforts, hang up mirrors and paintings...
by Lauren | Sep 9, 2018 | Grief, loss of a spouse
Saturday past was the first of September. The first day of Spring, the turn of the season, and the preamble to Summer. The days start of get longer and lighter, and there seems to be a lightening of moods as well. But on Saturday I felt heaviness and a despondency...
I’m a middle aged (ugh!), extremely privileged mom to one fourteen year old daughter and a rather large, but very slobby brown dog, which I inherited (I’m NOT a dog person – much prefer cats, to which I am terribly allergic).